again... the trip to cafe del mar was cancelled. firstly, we're BROKE! lol. then, we haf to be home early n we're kinda lazy to go all the way to sentosa. LOL. met small aunt at city hall. had our dinner at thai express. see, eating super good food make us broke. hahahahaha. ok i'm crazy.. talked2 while eating...

then off to marina.. the're BARNEY the purple dinosaur show!! hahaha. we were joking at them actually... hahaha. walked around marina... i was looking for my shorts.... it seems that they only sell either long... or extremely short pants! hahahaha. that s really crazy.

went into ripcurl n roxy... guess wad?! THEY DUN HAF THE WATCH THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH THERE!!!! arghhhh!! they only haf the old models. lol. i think they've been displaying that for more than a year i suppose! lol. walked around again... wanted to sit at starbucks BUt it was full! lol. walked at raflles city.. then home sweet home.... tired...

i haf o bring lots of stuff to skool tomorrow. art n craft stuff. hmmm... n i cant find my lil bro's nursery rhymes vcd. sorry teacher! n i've uploaded my nouvelle vague on my psp!! wheeee!! now i can listen it to skool!!! LOL.

i miss my girlfriends.. shahirah, wana, rauda, sya n sanam! meet up soon ok!!
n of course I MISS (insertnamehere)!!

~fid

Labels: sentosa...

i was online window shopping the whole day today....
n i fell in love with a roxy watch.
its super super cool...

kl trip is on! i cant wait! woohoo... first cousins' trip to kl!! its gonna be 6 of us! yea only the 6 of us! wheeeee! no old old poeple!! hahahaha. yayness... i'm so lookig forward to it!!

i've gotta go now. i haf to iron my clothes. i'm meeting my darling small aunt!!
sentosa here we come!! wheeee!!!

i luv u like fat kids luv cakes!!- i've got a msg frm him... cute n sweeeeet!! haha.
i love you too!!!!
125 more days!!!

~fid

Labels: Cafe Del Mar here i come.

skool was alrite today. i was a lil late. lol. thanks to the bus. the apek drive so slow... lol. new module... creative n expressive arts.. did texture rubbing after break. lol.we had to go down n look for textures... i dunno how to say it... but its really crazy.. i went to the roads. hahaha.

went to mc cafe after skool. waited for aunty kecik. had my double choc. it was so silly of me to get the small one. lol. sat n read my dorothy koomson. i was sitting alone... then this white lady came up to me asking if its ok to sit at my place... so ok.. i gace some space for her. n yeah i continued reading. THEN, some she-looks-like-a-crazy-but-i-dun-think-she-is-crazy woman sat BESIDE ME! i was really shocked n scared ok! i was listening to my psp. n i oculd hear her talking alone.... gosh. the white last was staring at her, giving that confused-"crazy woman" look. lol. that crazy woman i shall call her, went up to some white man sitting at the other place to ask for a lighter. lol. i really wanna laugh when i saw the way she walks. then she sat at the table beside mine. she spilled her coffee!! n she used her shawl to wipe the table!!!! LOL. i really wanna laugh la ok. she's so weird!

didn't go to Cafe Del Mar today due to some reasons.. anyway its raining heavily. lucky us we didnt go. went over to aunty kecik's place. we talked in her room... then ate! asam pedas ikan pari! woohooooo! i love that! its super nice la.... i ate twice. lol. its really super nice la...
then went home ard 9.....
i'm currently loving in a manner of speaking by nouvelle vague. its super nice. i never listen to any lounge songs like this but the first time i hear it, i fell in love with it. lol. its a really lovely song. like wad aunty kecik said,"it's great to listen to chill out and lounge stuff...it unwinds ur soul. makes u fly... esp a lovely book in hand." *wink* i'm addicted to this song!! LOL.

i'm just happy.. really really happy.
but i dunno how do i explain this feeling...
i get worried when u didnt text me..
i keep thinking about you...
the thought of you always puts a smile on my face..
i think i'm in love.....

i miss you too...
i'm counting the days till i see you this april...
i will be waiting n trust me, i won't get bored.... =P
i miss you more than you miss me...... haha

~fid

Labels: 126 days to april... nouvelle vague rocks.

Labels: 127 days to april.

i had the craziest dream ever.... i will never want to dream of that again. i had to wake up early to send something to the doctor...

read magazine till noon. n i start to do my lesson thingy. i was lost between two lesson. food tasting or eggs. lol. i actualyl asked atok to get chicken coz i wanna cook curry for the lesson. in the end i chose to do the eggs thing.... i got scolded by datok for wasting money on the chicken. haha. we can cook comething else out of the chicken. lol. went all over the net to look for eggs rhymes. lol. got mother goose n knick knack paddy whack. lol. i dunno which one is the appropriate one. used daddy's computer to print out the rhymes n the colouring pages...

kakak called ard 3. called me to go to aunty kecik's place. finisd up the printing quickly. went to the shop for binding... n off to aunty kecik's place...

kakak n mak went to T3 just now!! arghh. i havent been to T3!! i wanna go one day! lol. but they say not many shops are open. lol.

went home at 8.... went to the shop to get eggs n painting stuff. drained the eggs. i need the egg shells, boil the eggs... smash the hard boiled eggs to mix with mayo n pepper. presentations are really driving me crazy!! i'm really nervous!! i swear i'll stutter n laugh tomorrow! lol.

n i dunno if the movie outing with the classmates is on. haha. i hope so. but if we ain't going... PLAN B! lol. i wanna go chinatown. i wanna buy bag!! its not a need actually. lol.



i've been listening to thruogh the rain since yesterday... i'm stuck to it since aunty kecik told me to listen to it. lol. the lyrics are meaningful... i mean each n every word.... its a very inspirational song...

i didnt do anything much today.... had to wake up in the morning to go send my great granny to the doctor for her check up. since she's not been for quite some time, the doctor wanna do a blood test on her. i freaked out. lol. its suppose to be the one taking the blood test to freak out. instead i freaked out. seriously i didnt take a glance when the doctor's taking the blood. its really scary. i could feel the pain!! i know that sounds crazy. but i could feel it. yea, i have a phobia with needles... thanks to blood test too! its really scary....

went home at ard 12... theres a lot of ppl taking blood test actually just now. i dunno for wad. lol. they've got too much blood i guess. hahahahahahahaha. had my BRUNCH. played with watermelon.... she's super cute ok.... brought her to the shop. yea. super cute. i want this! i want this! lol.

went out with aunty kecik in the afternoon. our initial plan was to go to cafe del mar at sentosa to chill... but since the weather doesnt look nice, we decided to go the flea market at clarke quay. but we ended up going to far east instead. lol. walked around level 1... then off to wheelock for lunch, late lunch. lol. went to fish n co. i had new york fish n chips, aunty kecik had her seafood platter with garden salad. lol. this is super funny. both of us dun eat veggies. or i shud say we only eat certain veggies. we tried to eat the salad. lol. i find cherry tomatoes not nice... they are the harder versions of grapes! hahahahaha. i really cant eat salad... lol. but i finished up the anchovies! i didnt finish up my fish n chips. lol. i was too full after eating the fries. lol.

went to borders after that. browsed for books. gosh. i went mad when i saw the cool n cute notebooks. i refrain myself from buying coz in the end i'll end up doodling nonsense in the book. or even going to the extent of donating it to my lil bro. lol. wanted to get a book for myself. dorothy koomson's the cupid effect. but i havent finished reading her marshmallows for breakfast.

i've not been reading for quite some time. i'm just too busy wif assignments. yess.. i haf to do them fast n hand in on time... arghh... i've been prorastinating. i love procrastinating. lol. luckily, this teacher is cool. but the assignments are really crazy. they make us do crazy things. like going to the extent of making 20 different lesson plans based on only one theme! i've decided to choose food for my theme. lol. i just cant think of anyhting else. i think everyone ther will go mad in no time. lol.

after to borders, met uncle taha at lido, then to far east to meet abg az. ahd dinner at puncak. talked n discussed about the kl trip. i'm sure its gonan be really happening. coz this time, its only the cousins are going. no oldies! LOL. i really wanna go for this trip since my PERTH trip is cancelled due to some issues. but nvm, i'm gonna save up n the cousins shall go there next year most probably.....

another boring day tomorrow. i need to do my lesson presentation preparations... this realy sux. erghh. i'm doing about food. lol. everytime food! lol.

well i gotta go...

~fid

Labels: april please come faster....

i just can't believe that i cried after reading your blog entry.
you're the nicest, sweetest person (or shud i say guy) i've known.
i'm just speechless..................

maybe they're right... i shud just save up that money for my studies....
i'm no longer a kid.

maybe i shud just stay and wait for april to come.....

Labels: i miss you too........

i've been having migraines lately....
thanks to school n stuff...
i haf to be a good girl n do my assignments...
i haf 20 lesson plans to do...
this is really crazy..

skool was cool juz now. still.. she waits for everyone to com then only she'll start the lesson. i dun see the point of watching the video just now. its such a bore. after break there's the lesson thingy... i didn't do. i told teacher i've got migraine... so she said ok... i'll haf to do iot on tuesday. luckily i've got a few more days to plan. lol. but till today... i still dunno wad to do. thsi is really driving me crazy... went str8 home after skool.. i was too tired to do anything coz i slept at 3am last nite talking to (insertnamehere). =P

went to aunty kecik's place with nenek n lil bro. i actually slept at while watching tv at her place. aunty kecik's not home thou. yea. i was really really sleepy. lol went home at 7.

i have to stay at home tomorrow and be a good girl.... i haf to complete at least 1/4 of my curriculum planning assignments. n yes i haf to clean my room. its in a mess! total mess...

well gtg.. toodles!

~fid

skool was alrite today. i was late today. thanks to the bus..... SO LATE!! lol. but teacher came in later. class starts at 10. gosh. n she only taught us for only like 30mins. she was talking about the attendance. about someone amended the attendance n all sorts. now we really cant be late. after break was the presentation of lesson. i really dun see the purpose of doing it. "you're doing this so you haf a rough idea of what to do during your practicum." lol. but i still dun see the purpose doing it! n i dun wanna do it! lol. i really dun wanna do it ok. this really sux.

i'm still not done with my learning environment assignment. i'll haf to do it by tomorrow n hand it up on friday. assignments really sux big time. i haf no idea wad to write. lol. seriously...she said my previous assignment was too brief.... WTF?! i had to squeeze my brains for all that to come out n yet she said its too brief. lol. arghh... theres still another assignment. 20 lesson plans... are they crazy or wad?! i really haf to hand in that on time. or else i'll be DEAD!

i'm so looking forward to my perth trip. i might be going there alone, or with aunty kecik or wif lil bro n sister. i dunno. i gotta ask datok soon. i really wanna go!!!! lol. hopefully auntk kecik can go! *wink*

i was worried about you last nite.
hope you're doing fine there.
please please do take good care of yourself.
dun worry about me. i'm doing good here....

~fid

Labels: i'm lovin my victoria beckham's hairdo. lol

Labels: i'm lovin it

i envy ppl who haf a room of their own.
erghh. they can do anything to their room. me?
here i am stuck in one room wif my sister.
i dun wanna talk about it thou...*heart pain*
i'm hating this.....

here i am at home on monday doing my assignments.
i still dunno how to write a lot. lol
teacher says my previous one was too brief. erghh.
how much more does she want me to wirte.
assignments are real shit! lol.
u jus need to do it just to show that you understand what the whole module is all about.
i still havent started on my 20 lesson plans... n its due 11 dec.
gosh.... i've got lots to do...
hopefully theres no assignments the next module.

i miss my girlfriends..... meet up soon ok....
n i miss (insertnamehere) too!!!!! =P

~fid

Labels: nokia 5610 rawks.

went for soccer yesterday.
it was crazy....
i didnt wanna go at first since i haf assignment to do n moreover my shorts are all in the laundry.
i ended up wearing my sis's shorts!
its super funny ok.
lil bro followed.
this time my soccer mates last time came too.
its been a really long time since i played with them.
i had fun yesterday.

went home at ard 3plus.
went out with aunty kecik n her hubby.
firdaus was supposed to meet us but he's too tired after work. lol.
poor thing.
so its just me, aunty kecik n her hubby.
took a cab to wisma.
i wanted to go to singtel shop.
i cant stand it anymore.
my phones been giving me problems after problems.
so i decided to get a new phone.
yea. i'm wasting money rite?
dun think so. coz i'll be selling off my stupid w850i.
bought nokia 5610 express music.
its a slide phone again.
i like the 5310 thou but... 5610 is much more cooler.....
its in black n red. super cool...
then we had dinner at fissh n co wheelock...
i had black pepper stingray... *yummy*
aunty kecik n me had sharkie freeze, that super big drink.
went home after that. took buus 5.
there a lot of ppl at orchard. super lots of ppl la since its gonna be christmas soon....

i've got assignments due tuesday.... n i haf not done a single thing... erghh.
helppp!! i hate assignments.. can i not do? lol.

oh well.. i gotta go...
byee!!

Labels: assignments are shit.

my phone is really pissing me off...
i can't send msges!!! arghh!
help!!!!!!
stupid phone! erghh. tried to change phone... but i still can't send!
must be the stupid phone n the sim card.
erghh! its getting on my nerves!
i'll probably have to go starhub tomorrow.
STUPID PHONE!!!

anyway... we baked bread today in school.
it was so stupid of me to smell the dried yeast.
the smell is really reall NOT nice! lol.
my friends were all luffing at me. its crazy.
while waiting for the dough to rise, teacher was 'councilling' one of our classmates. it was funny ok.
all of us were simply chatting around waiting for dismissal.
we talked talked.. it was crazy...
we talked about crazy stuff.. lol. it was super super funny..
i helped to make the bread n now the smell of the yeast is still stuck on my hand. yucks!
i didnt eat the bread thou. it has got this funny look n smell. lol.
n in the end i n another fren had to clean it up. lol.

went to collect nenek's passport just now. the queue is super super long....
we had to wait for aaaaaages!! its crazy.
i am never gonna make passport during the holiday season. lol.

went to aunty kecik's place since i'm not going wo watch bestie perform at her skool.
i never felt this happy before.
i'm free like a bird.
i am not the fid i used to be last time.
i am just happy i regained myself back....
i shall move on with life n never turn back....

~fid~

Labels: I MISS YOU

seriously, curriculum planning assignment is real shit! i've got to do 20 lessonplans out of a theme! its totally crazy... deadline: 11dec! WTF! i haven't even start on my learning environment assignments. n now i haf another assignment to do.. damn!
i've gotta learn to hand in my assignments on time. arghh... the thing is, i love to procrastinate. hahaha. then i end up handing in my assignments LATE!

met up wif aunty kecik juz now after skool. had our late lunch at mac shaw house (or is is towers or centre?) hahahaha. i am never gonna eat there anymore. they have pigeons walking around the place n shitting anywhere they like. euwwww! i was eating nuggets n i saw this bird in front of me shitting like nobody's business. hahahaha. i'm not joking. i wonder why can ppl seat there wif dried bird shit around.... i didn't notice it until i saw that bird shitting.... erghh! its super gross. went to pacific plaza. went into ripcurl n quiksilver. quiksilver is having sale... 50% off. nothing nice to buy. ripcurl too. not nice. haha. then to far east. still, nothing to buy. haha. no mood to shop i guess. hahahaha. then sat at mac cafe. i had oreo cheesecake n hot chocolate. hahaha. n i ended wif a stomachache after that. haha. went to wheelock. to nokia centre. aunty kecik wanna get something... then to adidas... i'm loving this adidas bag... its 60bucks!! arghh... i'm so gonna get that bag! hahahahaha.

i've gotta.... bye!!

Labels: happy happy me

went to make granny'a passport early in the morning. i woke up super early. haha. we didnt know that we could juz drop in the forms.... in the end we reach home at 9am. it was a waste of time. i could wake up later!! hahaha. n so i did sleep. slept till 11am. haha. crazy.



went out wif aunty kecik n kakak. had our lunch at long john silver.... talk talk... then her fren came..... we sat for a while and talk... then walked to shaw house mac cafe... on our way walking.. hahaha. we saw lots of stuff. an indian guy wif pink hair!! girls wearing short dress wif pantyhose! n another one was a girl wearing royal blue dress weairng pink pantyhose. i was literally luffing at them.



we had a good talk juz now. n i realised something. ya... i dun wanna talk about it....

i realised about decision making. about wad i want in life. hey, i'm 18.... i haf to start thinking i wanna do in the future. not jus sit under my parents' armpits n listen to wad they say. hahaha. i'm not saying that i wanna rebel or something. but at least give the freedom. i'm not a kid anymore. i really dun understand. i'm not in their era where i haf to follow everywhere my parents go. or maybe they're jus afraid that i'll mix with the wrong company... erghh.... like i said.. i'm already 18.. i know who i mix with.. erghh...

my aussie cousin went back today wif his fren... i didn't send them off at the airport. that so bad of me la. hahaha. gonna miss them. it was crazy. i never felt so happy when i'm with them.( i mean all the cousins..haha) especially firdaus. he n his crazy stuff makes me luff all the time. n yea. he disturbed this indian boy at the traffic lite. lol. he's one super crazy n noisy cousin. we'll miss him too. he'll be serving the nation in like one month time. hahaha. all those crazy hairstyle has to go.... hahahaha. pity him...

wangi jadi saksi... was a good show... worth watching. lol. my 37 bucks was not wasted. hahahahaha. the actors n actress was superb. overall, its a really really good show...

gotta go. peace! hahaha.

Labels: a new friend found..

cuzzy firdaus wif his fren.. i forgot his name... *sowie*

it was pure coincidence to wear white n black seriously!! haha

gays in action.... LOL

thats all... i'll post all the pics at my fotopage aite! nyte!!

Labels: past shall be past.... i ain't looking back anymore..

at least i went out today.....
but i still keep thinking of you....
everywhere i go, it reminds me of you.....
y???

i really wanna show you that i'm changing... but the way you were towards me juz makes me wanna give up... i haf the feeling that you did this juz to make me feel how you felt when i did that to you last time. think back y i did that... shud you haf not done that 'something' last time.. all those things won't happen..... maybe i was too young that time... i dunno... i'm jus tired of all these.....
*i'm sorry... i jus haf to let it out.... i'm juz confused......

i haf enuf of crying, begging n arguing....
i shall be Me.....

~fid

15.80 for a cab from my place to skool. it was crazy.... i had to take the cab cince i got alot trto bring for learning corner presentation. i swear i'm never gonna waste my money for a cab anymore. hahaha. anyway, presentation today was fine.... managed to get more positive comments rather than negative ones.. haha. now i haf my assignment to do. deadline is this friday. its really crazy. i haf to redo all again coz i did something wrong. hahaha.

i'm not skooling tomolo. planning to watch game plan. i've been wanting to watch game plan last week. thanks to someone, i still haven't watch it. lol.

the cuzzies plan for an outing this friday. they're planning for cuzzy firdaus's farewell as he'll be serving the nation next month i guesss. hahaha. no more mohawk n hair extensions... lol. we're also celebrating uncle taha's birthday on friday.... =P i'm so looking to forward to friday... i always love cuzzies outing. especially wif the crazy bunch...

my room is in a mess. its really messy. i'm super lazy to clean coz in the end.. it'll be messy again.... erghh.... I WANT A ROOM OF MY OWN!!! haha. dream on fid..... seriously i hate my room now. erghh... dun wanna talk about it. its really crazy.....

gotta go now.. bye..

Labels: period cramps are killing me...

went for supper last nite at al-ameen.. its at kembangan area. ate cheese naan. it was super nice la... n in the end i end up having stomeachache when sleeping.

watermelon came today. she's having fever. poor lil darling... she so cute la.

i still need to go get my board for my presentation tomorrow.... n laminate the work... arghh. i hate last minute work la. the duration is super little. crap! in the end i ended up doing last min work n i'll haf to sleep late tonite. damn!!

going bugis later to go get my board n velcro straps.... hope it turns out nice.... :P

~fid~

Labels: sick n tired

y can't i be happy?
when i've got everything i want, i'm not happy....
when i've caught hold of something i want, that something seems to keep running away from me...
i'm not blaming anyone.
the problem lies in me.
i tried to change for the better but i myself dun see the changes.
i get mad for even the smallest thing.

i've made a stupid decision to go back to you n now i end up hurting myself.
it was really stupid of me.
i'm sick n tired of all these thing...
i shall be the rafidah i used to be....


~fid~

again... the trip to cafe del mar was cancelled. firstly, we're BROKE! lol. then, we haf to be home early n we're kinda lazy to go all the way to sentosa. LOL. met small aunt at city hall. had our dinner at thai express. see, eating super good food make us broke. hahahahaha. ok i'm crazy.. talked2 while eating...

then off to marina.. the're BARNEY the purple dinosaur show!! hahaha. we were joking at them actually... hahaha. walked around marina... i was looking for my shorts.... it seems that they only sell either long... or extremely short pants! hahahaha. that s really crazy.

went into ripcurl n roxy... guess wad?! THEY DUN HAF THE WATCH THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH THERE!!!! arghhhh!! they only haf the old models. lol. i think they've been displaying that for more than a year i suppose! lol. walked around again... wanted to sit at starbucks BUt it was full! lol. walked at raflles city.. then home sweet home.... tired...

i haf o bring lots of stuff to skool tomorrow. art n craft stuff. hmmm... n i cant find my lil bro's nursery rhymes vcd. sorry teacher! n i've uploaded my nouvelle vague on my psp!! wheeee!! now i can listen it to skool!!! LOL.

i miss my girlfriends.. shahirah, wana, rauda, sya n sanam! meet up soon ok!!
n of course I MISS (insertnamehere)!!

~fid

Labels: sentosa...